Can't Sleep

So sometimes I feel like there's so much that runs around in my mind that I have to get out. Or like right now, I feel like there's absolutely nothing there but there should be...? Not sure. Kinda strange and I think maybe I just shouldn't drink coffee.

I was thinking about how strange it is how much your life can change in a very short amount of time. One day you think you have it all figured out, all the possiblities laid out before you, and a pretty good idea of where you're going and how to get there. Then all at once your world is turned upside down and things that were once certain you begin to doubt. Feelings you had, goals that mattered very much all fade into a background of uncertainty and wonder. "How does that happen?!" I really haven't the slightest idea. Other than to say that whenever you think you have an idea of what's going on, that's the best indication that something big, bad and most likely irrecoverable is going to happen. And so I bid you good luck, poor soul, who thinks he's got it all figured out. Maybe the goal here is to never think you have it all figured out... Not sure. But I feel like my life is a constant series of planning, being blindsided, adjusting, repeat. Not that that's bad or anything. But if you know me, you realize how difficult it is for me to not have the mirage of control. At least a little. Just a little? Please? Fine then. Be that way.

And furthermore, why is that faith - of which all we need is a mustard seed - is so incredibly difficult to come by and even more cumbersome to hold onto? I mean really, if there's one thing you'd think would be learnable, at least at some point, it would be to trust a God who's always provided for you, worked things out marvelously, and has promised not to leave or forsake you. Hmm. There must be something about human nature...

I was thinking about making a list of things that confuse me. Maybe I'll add to this as I come up with more things:
High schoolers
Blood flow in the thoracic cavity
Why the sky is blue
How my hair won't ever do what I want when I want
How exactly to work the bike at work
The essentiality of the gall bladder
The accomplishment of Old Testament salvation
Escatology
Binary Fission
How to spell "experiment"
Economics

I am a bit sore.

I'm pretty sure I have nothing pertinent to say at this point. Unfortunately for you, I will probably continue on for quite a while.

Oh, no probably not. I just got sleepy. And so, I shall go to bed.

Goodnight.